I had a treatment today, it was the triple threat, Taxotere, Avastin and Zometa. I am feeling good, usually I just feel tired and achy for a few days after. My eyes continue to water non stop which is aggravating by mid day they are a bit sore and quite swollen. The update on my hair is I don't have much left. I have debuted some wigs this week, I can be a blond or a brunette. The boys in my life lean towards the brunette. Luke cannot understand why I could not find a curly one so I could look like I did before. However he does have fun putting the wigs on mimicking me around the house which does provide some comic relief. With my appearance changing Luke has asked a few more questions and inquired about 'treatment' so Brett and I decided to bring him. We thought it was important for him to see this is not just happening to his mom. The day after we returned from the Keys I was scheduled for chemotherapy so Brett called and it appeared to be the perfect day as another mom was there with her 10 year old son and there was a full house. Luke came in at first a bit nervous then looked around jumped in my chair and asked if all these people were "plugged in, for treatment." Once I told him yes he wanted to see where exactly I was 'plugged in' as we call it, so I explained again about my port and that not everyone has one but I chose to. He seemed to relax and settle in talking with some of the others in the room. Dr. Iannotti came to introduce himself and they shared a high five. Although, they did not stay for the entire treatment which I don't think was necessary I do think it was good for him. Had there not been many people I would not have done it we would have waited since our goal was for him to see, that as much as we may wish it didn't, cancer effects alot of people and many, many people endure chemotherapy. Brett and I feel the visit was the right thing to do for us and we continue to reassure him. Since that visit he seems a bit more patient and understanding on the days I may not be feeling so well. This has been a hard lesson in parenting and we have yet to discover the answers on how to properly handle children with loved ones that have cancer, what we do know is that there is no instruction book nor is there a right or wrong. As with everything else in life you have to find what works for you. For now what works for our family is simply taking it one step at a time.
